I hope you guys have had a beautiful day in the lord; I know I have had a great week. As some of you know it was my birthday last week and it was really nice to see the prayers and the love I received from people. The teenagers surprised me with a lot of prayer which was shocking since they normally don’t do it. I realized it was the lords doing, that I needed these prayers and it was lovely too see how much they have grown and they have challenged me to grow in more ways than I have ever imagined.
Anyways so below is my cake and I was so inspired and surprised by my sis who got me this lovely red velvet cake with a bible scripture on the top. I was so amazed because I was not expecting it. I realised that God will amaze you and will do a lot of things to surprise and inspire you. I felt so loved that day and I realised that God will always find someone to use to love me and you through. So apart from the lovely cake, presents, and the lovely birthday wishes I received which I was very grateful for; I received that I am 4 years from turning 30 years old. It’s quite shocking for me because I realised I am wont be twenty for long.
Furthermore, because I had many different expectations about where I would be or wanted to be by 25, I was very aware that a few of those goals are not achieved it. For example in the church, or even with myself I definitely wanted to be married by 26 for at least 1, or 2 years so that by 27 or 27 I will start thinking about having my first baby e.t.c. I have a beautiful life, with a great job, great family and friends. I am yet to be married, nor I am seeing anybody. It is not because I don’t have the option or the desires to because I get asked out but I know what God has for me and it is not to settle. I have learned to walk closely with God. He has taught me the value of believing him for the best. He has taught me to wait on him so that I can walk in his perfect will.
So at 26, it was very easy for me to get depressed because a few things that I need to do, or have in place have not been done it. It is funny how we compare ourselves to other people knowing full well that God has a plan for us all individually. God warned me that if I am so hungry to marry I will end up in the wrong marriage and more miserable than before I got married. What I am trying to say Is this. Maybe you are not 26, by 36, 46, 56, or younger and you thought that you would have accomplished certain things by now; it get and I understand that pressure but why allow it to bother you? Do you know I am saying this? It is because I tried to have so many things that I wanted and when I got them I realised it is not what I want. Here is what you should be concerned with and that is staying in Gods will and fulfilling your purpose. You are here for such a time as this. You are destined to accomplish more in this life. you can make a difference in this world to those around you.
So ask yourself, why do I do what I do, what has God called me to be and am I doing it. I felt like OMgoodness I am 26 and I don’t have this and that but the Holy Spirit reminded me that at least I know who I am in Christ and I have and I am in his divine will for my life. God has changed my life because of Purpose and fulfilling my potential. I am stronger, smarter, more positive because of my purpose. I have found myself in his purpose for my life. It is in his purpose that I discovered who I am and I fell in love with that. I am not saying that the things you want are not valid because they are and believe me I want to have kids and be married but only If I am ready for it and qualified for it. We see this in Matthew 10:39 TLB you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give it up for me, you will save it.” Another translation (AMP) put it this way:
And he who does not take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conforming wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying also] is not worthy of Me. whoever finds his [[b]lower] life will lose it [the higher life], and whoever loses his [lower] life on My account will find it [the higher life].
I only want what I can handle because I can see people that are miserable with what they desired so much and I see how gracious God has been to me by removing me from situations that I put myself in or at times I have been rejected from things or people and that later I discovered it is the best thing that ever happened to me. So relax, stay calm and faithful to God for what has for you. Love God with all you heart, stay in faith and know that one day it I will come to pass. God sees your heart, your faithfulness, your desire, but continue to get lost in him and his word, ask him to help you love him more, to teach you his ways, and continue to love people and win souls to Christ for him. I promise you it is so fulfilling and so worth it. You know why I am emphasising this because lovely God, and serving him is the only thing that can keep you satirised.
Having a husband or a wife is lovely, having a baby or a job or a dream career is great and we should desire great things in life but only the indwelling presence and fellowship on to of those things will keep you whole and will satisfied. God has you. He knows what you need and in due time you will get it. I hope to marry some day to a sexy, hot Christ man, I hope to travel the world preaching with him so people can know him, I hope to raise up kids that will be serving God one day, I want to write books and help business grow but I WANT GOD more. I want to know him more and more, I desire him, I cannot do life without him. I don’t want those things if it means I don’t get to know God. So stay faithful, seek God no matter what I promise you wont regret it.
I love you